| Update on my leg! |
[15 Jan 2008|08:21pm] |
Good news! My leg seems to be getting stronger again! I haven't been having as hard of a time walking with it, and I have been using my cane still just for support, but I am feeling a lot more energized!
I have to call work tomorrow to let them know how I am doing and when I think I'll be able to come back, and I think I should be able to go back after this weekend!!!
Dustin took me for a drive today and I went and got a tea, it was really nice to both spend time with him, and to get out of my house for a bit!
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| It's been a long time. |
[14 Jan 2008|01:32pm] |
So, a lot has been going on with me recently. I will start out with the least important things and move to the serious stuff.
I had an amazing Christmas and New Years.
I got a job at MAC Cosmetics.
I have been spending a lot of time on self improvement.
I'm addicted to the Tao Te Ching.
Dustin and I broke up.
I started Yoga.
Something is wrong with my leg and I have been having a series of different tests to find out what is wrong. I have been seeing a specialist and a neurologist, I had x-rays and some other stupid test on my nerves which HURT a LOT. My reflexes are fine, but my leg wont move properly. NOW, they think I have either multiple sclerosis or a lesion in my spine. Here is what has been going through my head:
So, here is a time line of what I thought was going on with my leg.:
Wednesday Jan. 9th:
WTF! my leg is soo messed up! I don't know what I did to it! I screwed up a muscle in it or something, I can't even wiggle my toes!!
I really hope my leg being fucked isn't going to interfere with yoga tonight!!!
I'm afraid.
Blood clots maybe? :(
Friday Jan. 11th:
Soooo I got a call from my doctor at 7am and she made me rush in to her office for a check up, again she was off all weekend and she wasn't supposed to be in the office but she is worried about me...
I went in and she checked me out and it is more than just something being wrong with my leg, she thinks that I might have a problem with a nerve in either my brain or spine, and I am waiting for a neurologist to call me and when he does I have to go to his office immediately for an MRI
I had to bring a doctors note to work and I am off work for the weekend, I am FUCKED. I thought I was going to lose my job but they understand, I am so freaking lucky
I am really worried, and I didn't realize how serious this is... Dustin actually left school today because I messaged him and told him that something was wrong, and he came all the way across town to my doctors office just to sit with me.
I'm really nervous, I don't know what is going to happen.
Later that day:
I went to the neurologist and I didn't end up getting an MRI like I was supposed to, there is always big waits for them and I am put onto an urgent list, so I should get in there in the next couple of days. My doctors will NOT let me go back to work until they find out what is wrong
the neurologist did a couple different tests, one of which sent shocks into my leg to check where the nerves are reading their signals and where they aren't. Before, it was only up to my knee, now it is all the way up to my hip.
After they did tests, they found out that the problem is for sure in my brain or spine, and it could be anything really... it could be a tumor, swelling, anything.
I am even more upset now than before, I can't deal with fucking waiting to find out what is wrong... I'm in a lot of pain.
Saturday Jan. 12th:
I'm off work until at least Tuesday
:(
I'm really not okay with this.
I'm broke and broookeee..
so my leg is progressivly getting worse. I can feel it all the way up into my hip now and I'm in more pain than before.
Sunday Jan. 13th:
I now walk with a cane.
QQ.
fuck with me and I'll hit you with my cane.
My probationary period at work is being extended because of my missing work for my leg.
I'm nervous.
Monday Jan. 14th:
My MRI isn't until Friday :(
Today my parents are calling my neurologist and apparently they are going to try to admit me in to the hospital to get my MRI done faster. I'm getting more and more stressed out about this stupid stuff. JUST CHOP THE DAMN LEG OFF ALREADY!
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| I'm terrible at this |
[08 Apr 2007|09:28pm] |
In ever post in online journals anymore. I don't know if it's a good thing or whatever, but I have had stuff to talk about.
I just got back from Europe a week ago. I went to Paris, Barcelona, and London, and it was beautiful over there.
I got extensions on thursday, I like them quite a bit!
Me and Dustin are doing better than ever.
but like I said I am terrible at this and so I am going to bed.
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| Local Celeb. |
[04 Mar 2007|08:27pm] |
Fisjgs=.sdgs so. It turns out I am somewhat of a local celebrity, says a cute girl with cute hair. Her name is Bret and more people should look like her. People knew who I was, before I even knew for myself.
Updates on my life?
-I broke 2 nails, that's how shitty All The Rave is for acrilics. I advise that you don't go there.
-I won a coffee at Roll Up The Rim To Win with my second cup of tea during the contest, Tim Hortons is such a great addiction.
-I had an allergic reaction (it still shows, I have a bit of a rash on my face *shutter*) to sea salt from work... because I have been working on salt tanks like MAD!
-I'm due for a raise at my work and I think I am getting reviewed.
-I'm heading to europe in T-10 days.
-As soon as I get back from Europe I will be looking for a job where I can work weekends, as a busser or waitress so that I can make hellza tips. I hope to work somewhere like Earls, The Keg, or The Cactus Club.
-I am going for a pedicure on thursday hopefully, and getting my nails fixed on the same day, or maybe tuesday if I can.
-I had a bad costomer service experience with The Bay. See below.
-I got my bra fitted, turns out I am back to the same size I was in grade 8-9! WOOHOO yay for weight loss and boob loss.
-I finished the clense that I posted out before, I only lost about 8 lbs. Still good though for a week. I feel amazing for being able to control myself enough to do it.
-I got a new jacket.
Situation at the Bay:
I had the absolute worst service ever. It was utterly RUDE what these two ladies did. I was in the Bay and I was looking at some high-end hats that were gorgeous, and I asked to try one on. The lady said "pardon me..?" and I said, "can I please try that hat on?" again. Another lady walked behind her and said, "uh, that's 250$." So I said, 'SWEET, NOW THAT I KNOW THE PRICE AM I ALLOWED TO TRY IT ON!?" , and they just sort of snarled at me! So I caused a huge scene as I exited. I HATE when people judge you on how you look and basically tell you that you can't afford something, when you are just wanting to fucking try it on! WHO KNOWS maybe if I liked it enough I would want to save up to buy it. After I did this they knew that I was offended and they chased after me as I A-lined it out of the store. They tried to appologize and I wouldn't even accept it. THAT WAS FRIGGIN RUTHLESS.
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| Sacred Heart Diet Updates. |
[25 Feb 2007|07:11pm] |
"This diet is fast. The secret lies within the principle that you will burn more calories than you take in. It will flush your system of impurities and give you a feeling of well-being."
Day One: Any fruit (except bananas). Cantaloupes and watermelon are lower in calories than most other fruits. Eat only soup and fruit today.
How I felt: I felt really good that I was starting the diet on this day, the soup is really good so I couldn't wait to be eating lots of it and I stocked up on a lot of cantaloupe and different fruits to lug around with me all day which was great, but I felt hungry ALL day.
Day Two: All vegetables. Eat until you are stuffed with fresh raw, cooked or canned veggies. Try to eat green leafy veggies and stay away from dry beans, peas or corn. Eat veggies along with the soup. At dinnertime tonight reward yourself with a big baked potato and butter. Don't eat any fruits through today.
How I felt: I was a lot more full all day, didn't feel as hungry because I was always eating some sort of veggie and drank a lot of black tea, really craved carbs. THE BAKED POTATO WAS WELL NEEDED
Day Three: Eat all the soup, fruit and veggies you want. Do not have a baked potato. If you have eaten as above for three days and not cheated, you should find that you have lost 5-7 pounds.
How I felt: I definatly didn't feel like I had lost any weight today, it didn't hit me until day 4 that I had lost anything as my face thinned a little and I weighed myself to find that I did loose about 5 lbs.
Day Four:Bananas and skim milk: Eat at least 3 bananas and drink as much milk as you can today, along with the soup. Bananas are high in calories and carbohydrates, as is the milk but on this particular day, your body will need the potassium and carbs. Proteins and calcium to lessen the cravings for sweets.
How I felt: I ate a total of 6 bananas which is terrible. I didn't have much soup.. only a few bites, because I was definatly craving a lot of sweets. I drank 1L of skim milk and discovered my love for it. mmm I'm having some now.
Day Five: Beef and tomatoes: you may have 10 to 20 ounces of beef and a can of tomatoes, or as many as 6 tomatoes on this day. Eat the soup at least once today.
How I felt: Felt great, didn't have any of my usual daily headaches up until today though. My body isn't used to eating well at all and I didn't have any of the tomatos. No soup today though..
Day Six:Beef and veggies, eat to your heart's content of the beef and veggies today. You can even have 2-3 steaks if you like with green leafy veggies but no baked potato. Be sure to eat the soup at least once today.
How I felt: Glad that it was going to be over soon.
Day Seven: Brown rice, unsweetened fruit juice and veggies, again, be sure to stuff yourself and eat the soup. You can add cooked veggies to your rice if you wish.
How I felt: I didn't end up doing this day, I had no brown rice.
By the end of the 7th day, if you have not cheated on this diet, you should have lost 10 to 17 pounds.
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| Update. |
[07 Feb 2007|10:50am] |
So, I haven't really had the time to update lately due to school and work and mass ammounts of stress in general. I had my first interview at MAC the other week, and it went well enough for me to have a second interview as soon as I turn 18. They aren't in a rush to hire right now, but I am guaranteed an interview as soon as summer rolls around. They just wanted to get the group interviews out of the way. Next step is 3 on 1 with the two managers and the 3rd key who is really hot.
At school nothing much has been happeneing really. I am T.A.ing Paul's spare block. hahah. What a joke. I basically get 4 credits for hanging out with Paul and doing some paper work or organizing for him, which is toootally fine. He also told me only to show up on off days, which are only tuesday and thursday, because the other 3 days of school have the block that I'm TAing first thing in the morning and he is going to use that time to sleep in. So basically hanging out with Paul two days of the week gets me enough credits to graduate.
Katie and I told this poor guy in my art class who has absolutly no confidence, that he really is attractive and that he doesn't carry himself with enough attitude. He was so flattered and now it actually seems like he is trying harder to impress people, which he shouldn't really have to try to do, but it's nice because we gave him a little push upward, and now all the girls in the art class swoon to him like he is some sort of god. It's entertaining, and they all try to gain his approval by making small talk and sending him tacky valentines conversation heart candies that say "love me" or "kiss me" on them. Katie was extra bold and straight up send one that said "marry me" on it. It was cute.
Dustin has been doing great with his photography. Unfortunatly him and I did some photos for an artistic nude challenge on DPchallenge.com and he got disqualified because he and I are both under 18. Psht. It was lame. Oh well I got some sweet photos out of it, and even before it got disqualified the photo entered in the challenge had a REALLY high vote! He is doing his first actual paid shoot this weekend, for a musician who is slowly getting more known in Victoria. She wants something edgy and wants to recreate my Animal Instincts photos pretty much. So I get to trust Dustin heading downtown with a girl dressed like a hooker who is nearly 30, to the nasty alleys in Baston Square. Haha she wants to do 'evanescence style' photos.
I had to finally confront a friend of mine about lying to me, but it didn't really go over well. It was the typical sort of highschool drama confrontation and it ended with me just walking away. I didn't even tell her what I know she is lying to me about yet. She told me not to talk to her if it was anything bad so I did just that, I didn't talk to her and HAHA sent her a note! highschool drama FTW!
I am fiiiinally a little more motivated to do work in art now. I am doing a copper etching of a rhinoceros! it is turning out pretty wicked so far and I can't wait for it to be finished so that I can print it.
Annnyways. I think I have typed quite enough now for one day.. and I'm getting all flustered with thoughts so I'm going to go.
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| jan8th-16th |
[18 Jan 2007|05:44pm] |
I was gone to disneyland, san deigo, hollywood, etc. I had sooo much fun down there with Dustin and his family, it was amazing.
( Photos. )
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| internet |
[18 Dec 2006|09:27pm] |
is gay.
as in, I love it so so so much and I am way too reliant on it.
my power was out and so was the internet for a few days and I had NOTHING to do without it!
I couldn't even get ahold of people to hang out, becuase of it.
phones are over rated, I'm obviously not going to callll people.
haha ps. I am activating my cell phone in the new year.
oh shit.
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| so I'm starting to think |
[14 Dec 2006|10:47pm] |
that the guy that asked me to do the photos for dayglo abortions isn't actually in the band.
I have nooo flipping idea because I've never seen them or what not.
whatever, I wont send him the photos until I know he's legit, but maybe I'll do the photos anyways just to be cool.
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| the dayglo abortions |
[12 Dec 2006|10:11pm] |
asked me to be their poster girl
hmmmm should I do it?
I'd have to get photos taken with my shirt off, nipples covered with black tape.. and dustin would take them
do I go for it?
I get free shows and my naked chest posted around the town in exchange hahah
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| Paul |
[09 Dec 2006|08:54pm] |
So I'm heading off to paul's party soonish... I hope I can find it
Dustin's mom is driving us out there and oddly she is giving us booze
as if we need more.
she is giving us a few ciders and beer, and I already have a mickey of gin and half of one of vodka
that is DEFINATLY enough for me and dustin, we are lightweights.
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| motivation, determination, I feel good. |
[20 Nov 2006|09:49pm] |
Okay. So.
what has been going on with me lately?
well I bleached my hair twice, and dyed it brown.
I look almost normal, but still stand out.
My eyebrows are almost non-existand and I am trying to get my hands onto some rogaine to re grow them in.
I was asked to join two new websites.
One is called Juryroll.com and I am now a VIP member with a paid account, that I didn't even have to pay for. I am there to promote it and get people joining! so go join!
I am also going to be a part of a website that is called Insight Saves Lives, which promotes the yellow ribbon fund, which is for prevention of teen suicide! Which I am all for obviously. This website is one that art is sold off of, and a large percent of the proceeds goes to the yellow ribbon fund. I am hopefully going to have an account (for free, normally you would have to pay but I was asked to join and have it paid for already) that is shared with Dustin, and we are going to sell prints of pictures that Dustin will be taking of my art, my makeup.
I was asked to do makeup for two things lately.
A hairdresser of a friend of mine asked if I would be able to do makeup for photoshoots, which I will be included in, in exchange for the hairdresser doing my hair. Booyah.
Also, some college for preforming arts here wants me to do the makeup for their productions for pay. I don't know the name of the college or the name of the plays that they are doing, but an ex student of my school is setting me up with it and I am awaiting an email telling me the details.
I threw a pot in Art.
I am motivated to do more makeup.
I am motivated to do more photoshoots with Dustin.
Love me.
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| Dear David Wade; |
[19 Nov 2006|10:35pm] |
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Go to the hospital now please. We are all sick of you, and we are sick of how sick you are. You need help, get it.
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| Lady Lavendar |
[30 Oct 2006|09:12pm] |
The lavendar women on the bus
say they have nothing to share
but their pursed lips
and the lines on their faces, say otherwise
and you know
that by the time they expire
they regret their silent ways
and wish they had told their tale
and the road map of veins on their chest
lead you to know
that they have been many places
so you step onto that 40 foot taxi
and are kissed with lavendar
and know that she is there.
you step one foot in front of the other
and when you walk past her,
you smile and think a soft,
"hello, how are you? I'd really love to know."
but she just keeps on looking
straight ahead.
mmmmhm by me.
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| so tuesday |
[28 Oct 2006|10:31pm] |
I was in a car accident
me and my dad were in the bmw
we are okay
I have a super sore back
I want masage therapy
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| accusing and assuming |
[17 Oct 2006|09:26pm] |
things that everyone is good at these days
I hate when you write things about someone, that you want them to find, but they don't get it and someone else finds it and thinks it's about them when it really has nothing to do with them at all!
I'm as real as it gets and don't think otherwise.
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| fat ____ |
[14 Oct 2006|10:09am] |
ahaha I don't remember the name of the movie, it's fat something, but my agent lined me up for some more background performing. it's sweet, since I gave her an updated picture of me she is setting me up with lots of work, and she said she might be able to talk to an agent in vancouver for me to do some really simple modelling, like for clothing and such. I'm too short to do runway obv and too fat. I'm 5'7 and I'm average.
I haven't had much time for updating lately, but asians love me and I won the first round of Nexopia's Next Top Model, and my principal told me she thinks I should be on America's Next Top Model, which I laughed a lot about because I'm Canadian.
I did makeup for my teacher for a costume party last night, she was a gold digger and it was a fab. costume.
( makeup of today )
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| awe Justine |
[02 Oct 2006|08:33pm] |
Justin was a cat that I grew SO attatched to at work, she had been there as long as I have and I got so sad when she was adopted. the girl adopting her cried, she was so happy about getting her. now that is love.
anyways, I welled up from having to be the one to adopt it out
I need to stop getting attatched to those gawd damn animals
anyways, it was me and dustin's 15 month yesterday, happy 15 month boogee
I love you more than you'll ever know
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| 5-8 |
[29 Sep 2006|07:53pm] |
5- you are amazing! you are underestimated and an amazing artist and I think you are taken for granted by people. You can be too nice and you know it's a fault but you are too nice to change that. You'll make a lovely peterpan, respect!
6- I can't stand you for one reason, stop trying to keep in his life. I have no idea if you have been messaging him lately or anything but it was too much when you tried to get him to meet with you on Hornby. I know he wouldn't do anything, because he hates you for who you are, but he wants to forgive you and I would rather he didn't. so what if you appologised to everyone, it's not enough.
7- you are new in my life, yeah, and I think you are neat, yeah, but you can get kinda annoying. I'm sorry... You need to get laid and then stop worrying about EVERYTHING so much! Ps. music sucks.
8- Wow, drama. Married and separating already?! you've changed, you're a good person, now.
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